Better yet, get inspired……

I haven’t felt like posting or reading or doing much truth be told for about a week now.  I somehow got a miserable cold that kept me in bed most of the time and am starting to feel human again.  Well yesterday I started feeling better.  Today, much better.  I have managed to keep on trucking, looking for a job though.  I submitted my resume to several places and got a hit today from Craig’s list!  It’s for an electrical office and I’m not going to complain.  It’s right down the street and that’s a good sign.  The pay is pretty decent.  And I can pick up things like THAT so I don’t think it will be an issue.  Ya know!?  I have an interview today and I have a good feeling about it.  The owner has a 4 year old dog that is always in the office so how can that be bad?  I don’t think that it can.

It’s not in insurance, which, I don’t know if I’m going to complain or not.  Insurance jobs are hard to get around here.  I’ve wanted out of insurance to do other stuff and maybe this is that way.  Who knows!?

But anyways.  Hey while you are at it and you’re here, if you look at my 101 you’ll see some Major and I do mean major changes!  You’ll see that the second list is now gone and some from that list have made it to the 101 list.  You know why?  Another spurt of creativity.  I decided that this may be a short term bucket list, but I wanted a long term bucket list.  So I made one.  I don’t have it up anywhere, I’ve only taken a few things from my 101 and my 109 and put them on it.  This is a whole other thing.

Not sure where the inspiration came from, but I’m taking it and running.  Today is going to be a great day!

Now don’t forget to leave a comment and let me know you were here!  I love comments!

What’s Going On

Ok-I’ve got so much going on in my brain right now, pardon the complete and utter randomness of this

Now on to the good stuff.  I’ve weeded out my 101 and got rid of some things and replaced them.  I’ve taken my other list and weeded it down to 101 so it will be a true 101 list.  I’m trying to get the hubby to do a list with me and so far, it’s difficult.  You know these men are.

We’re going to be making Christmas presents this year.  Baking 101 here we come!  Look for some awesome recipes coming up!  Between Judy, Ryan and myself, we should be able to make some awesome goodies.

So we’ve found a really awesome feature on the On Demand part of the cable.  And because of it, I’ve discovered True Blood, the series from HBO, I’ve finished it and now I want to read the books, which by the way, if you are reading this family of mine and want to send me something for Christmas, I’ve got a lot of stuff on it, including the books.  Not to mention, you can look at my lists too.  Yeah, I’m shameless I know.  But I just thought I’d put it out there.

So I’ve entered 3 contests, JPG magazine has two entries, fresh milk has 1 and so does sony.  I’ll keep shooting and maybe get lucky enough to win something but they are contests so I’ve marked that off my other 101.

I also got to mark off Kiss my hubby in the rain.  During the two days of down pours, we took advantage of it one night.  Talk about fun.

The hall way is almost completely done, I’m so excited.  The brown is fabulous and I can’t wait for it to be completed, talk about a peaceful color.  I think that’s about all for now.  I’m anxious to work out a game plan for wonderful home made gifts this year.

What about you?  What have you got planned for the holidays!!  Comment, please, you know I love them!!!

Just Believe

So rarely do we have those “epiphanies” on the poetic moments we’re “supposed” have them at. Mine always seem to come when I least expect it. I was looking at my new Redbook that came into today and I flipped to the back where it has the “You Know You’re a Grown Up When…” One of them said “You’ve finally figured out that if you don’t believe in yourself, no one will.” Somewhere deep down inside this just clicked.

Dirk and I have always tried to have the motto of “Just Believe”. For a gift one year, mom even gave me this mirror hanger thing that is sitting on top of our back door that says Believe. And I had to sit there and think to myself for a minute.

It seems like I’ve always been waiting for someone to believe in me and what I can do. That I was holding myself back from doing something simply because I didn’t believe I could do it. Well, if I don’t believe I can, how can I expect someone else to believe that I can?? I have to have that confidence, that belief in myself that I can do it before anyone else can. It seems I’m always at a stand still at something. If it’s not the eternal quest to be a smaller version of me, then it’s my writing, or it’s my something.

I KNOW I can do it. I’ve basically taught myself to scrapbook, I’ve started this undertaking of my 101 in 1001. I’ve gotten a designation in my workfield, not because anyone told me I had to do it. Because I wanted to do it. Even when it wasn’t the easiest thing in the world, I still pushed myself to do it. I look back at the times where I’ve started my quest for a smaller self (notice I will not call it a diet), and I was quite successful, losing 40 pounds, but then I stall or quit for whatever reason.

Why?

Because I haven’t believed in myself or had the confidence to believe in myself to do it. So where does one go from this point? Admiting it is the first step to correcting it right? I know there is not an overnight cure for it.

So I’m taking it, my first step to believing in myself and having that confidence in me so that I can ultimately be secure with myself no matter who I am, what I look like or what size I am. One day at a time.

Why?

Because I’m unique, because I’m me and because I don’t have to be a mold of anyone. They broke my mold when they made me.

Right? Right!