Discovering Donna


Because….

Posted in Believe,Life by Donna on March 31, 2009
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So Finn touched on sort of this subject yesterday here. Let me just say if you haven’t read it, do it! She has such a way with words.  And she sort of has a different take on this.

When I was growing up, I wanted to be a cardiologist. My reasoning was simple, I wanted to be a heart doctor because I wanted to find out what it was that caused my father’s heart to be bad. I wanted to figure out how to fix it. I was dead set on this from 4th Grade to 12th Grade. I got a little encouragement from my dad but that was mostly it. Then let’s keep it real here,  I couldn’t deal with the sight of blood.  So I decided that I would do something “safe”.

I would become a teacher. Well, that lasted for about a year in college. I had the idea after that of majoring in Criminal Justice. Then life set in and I had to stop school, take care of dad and get a job. I flitted around with various things and then he passed. So, I moved to Louisiana. I got a job in insurance, which I had a little experience. And I gained a whole lot of experience.

I got a designation in my field and want to get a couple of more. I got my license too. So here I am in a field that is so not what I would have thought I would ever be in. But I am. I was okay with the agency side of life, working directly with the customers and working with the companies. But I had a longing to work on the company side. To be in underwriting. I would have never had that opportunity had I not moved to Ca. But, I applied for the company side and the job that I wanted to start with, it came through yesterday.

Granted it’s not in the ocean marine side of the board, it’s not in the inland marine side, but it’s with moving and trucking companies, something I am very familiar with. So all is not lost. It’s underwriting and I’m excited about that. It’s the chance to have that career that I wanted and be a big girl.

I know it’s nothing like what I had dreamed of when I was little but then again what ever is? Had we had enough money, had I had more encouragement, had I had {insert what else I could have had}  maybe it would have been different. Now, it is what it is.

I can have regrets all day long but when it comes down to it, I’m not wasting my time anymore on regrets. I’m done with them. My life is too short.

Because I am doing what I want to do. Because I can do what I want to do. Because I refuse to spend a moment longer on what could have been if it had been different. Because I am taking a stand for myself.



Flat Stanley

Posted in Fun by Donna on March 30, 2009
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img_0812Hi guys! I need your help! Much like Jennifer had Flat Alyssa I have Flat Stanley! He comes from Julie’s daughter, Lainey back home in Shreveport!
So here is what I’m requesting you do, if you have time can you send me a description of where you live and maybe a picture or two of a couple of landmarks where you live? You can email them to me and if you need my email, please let me know!

Thanks guys!

This was more than I thought it would be

Posted in 101,109 in 2009,Life by Donna on March 30, 2009

It’s 6:31 and I’ve been awake since 4. I’ve been trying to think of a good blog post for a while now, but nothing really good had come to mind.  So, I’m not sure what I really want to say here.  It’s not that I couldn’t sleep.  I can’t say that.  I slept like a rock last night and I was out before 11.  And yes, that is a good thing.  I think.

I haven’t really felt like myself the past couple of weeks.  (I know, since when is that anything new?)  But, this is different.  Like something is missing.  I’ve been trying to figure what that could be.  But I think this am, as I’m watching it get lighter and lighter outside, I think I’m missing me.  I finished a few things on my lists in the past couple of weeks and I’ve felt better.  A lot better when I’ve been doing something like that.

Because those lists that I’ve made, they are things that I wanted to do.  Things that I wanted to accomplish.  Sure my 101 was changing all the time, but then again, I’ve decided that they are on that list for a reason.  If I want to do more, I should make another list.  Right?

Well, I’ll let you in on a secret.  Are you ready?  I did.  I made another list.  But it’s different.  It’s for me, it’s things that I want/need to do for me.  Because the two lists I have right now, they are to help me, but they aren’t all that I need.  I’ve discovered that over the past few days.

So, if you want to know what’s on the list, you can let me know.  I’ll be happy to share it with you.  🙂  Of course, I think a couple of people who read this already have seen it.  I actually set up another blog to get out some feelings and it’s weird because those posts sort of fit for here.  So I would say look for them in the next couple of days.  I think that blog is going to be just for that list and the projects on it.  So if you want that link, let me know.

I have a feeling that that blog is going to be a great experience for me.  I set it up origionally to get out my feelings about some things but as Cafe Chick pointed out here it’s a way to get to know me. If I can’t vocalize my feelings on my blog, what good is it? (this is my thought) so I’m doing that.

I’m taking a stand for me. So here is your warning. If you’re offended by anything that’s going to be posted. I’m sorry. Sort of. I mean let’s face it. I’m so much better at writing down how I’m feeling than expressing it. So that is my way of expression. And that’s what I’m doing.

For me. Because I want to. Because I need to. Because I can. Because after all, it’s Discovering Donna, Right????!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh and a new feature (I’m going to add when I think about it) What’s playing?
Homesick-Train
Iris-Goo Goo Dolls
Free-Train
These Hard Times-Matchbox 20
Holiday in Spain-Counting Crows

Sunday Stealing

Posted in MEME by Donna on March 28, 2009
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So the Meme is up atSunday Stealing here is mine

1. Are you single? No

2. Are your parents still married? My real ones? No, my adopted ones? Yes

3. Are you in love? Yes

4. Do you believe in love at first sight?Yes

5. Who ended your last relationship? I did

6. Have you ever been hurt by a break up? Yep

7. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Yep

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer? Once

9. Prefer love or lust? Love

10. Prefer a few best friends or many regular friends? A few best friends

11. Wild night out or romantic night in?romantic night in

12. Back in the day: Been caught sneaking out? Nope

13. Ever wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? Yes

14. Who are/is your best friend(s)?JoAnn, Julie, Lori

15. Ever wanted to disappear? constantly

16. First attraction: Smile or eyes? Eyes

17. Prefer intelligence or attraction?Intelligence

18. Last phone call you received? Katy

19. Last thing you drank? Water

20. Before your current one, when was your last relationship? A few months

21. Do you and your family get along? Yes… wait, which family

22. Would you say you have a “screwed up life”? No

23. Have you ever gotten kicked out somewhere? If yes, do tell. No

24. Do you trust all your friends? Yes

25. Who knows the most about you? Mom

Your turn!

What’s Playing

Posted in Just Because by Donna on March 28, 2009

So today, I’d much rathere listen to Pandora or better yet make my own playlist on Itunes from the music I have.  So that’s what I did.  What’s playing you ask?

Well if you really want to know, I have 3 Pandora stations I’ll switch to later I’m sure.  One is Train Radio, One is John Legend and the other is Adele.  I think I need to combine them, that would be kick ass!

But as for my ITunes here’s what’s playing right now:

  • Chasing Pavement-Adele
  • All I Really Want-Alanis
  • A Womans Worth- Alicia Keys
  • Diary-Alicia Keys
  • Loser-Beck
  • Letting the Cables Sleep-Bush
  • Sideways-Citizen Cope
  • Busy Child-Crystal Method
  • Silence-Delerium
  • Call Me When You’re Sober-Evanescence
  • Beat It-Fall Out Boy
  • Video-India Arie
  • Pretty Vegas-INXS
  • I’m Yours-Jason Mraz
  • Ordinary People-John Legend
  • Green Light-John Legend feat. Andre 3000
  • Lovestoned- Justin Timberlake
  • Never Again-Kelly Clarkson
  • Bleed it Out-Linkin Park
  • Naked Eye-Ludacris
  • Ms. Jackon-Outkast
  • Standing Outside a Broken Phone Booth with Money in my Pocket-Primitive Radio Gods
  • Lost in You-Rod Stewart
  • Vasoline-STP
  • Swagga Like Us-MIA, Kanye West, Jay-Z, Lil Wayne and T. I.
  • Seven Nation Army-White Stripes
  • Days Go By-Dirty Vegas
  • Hate it or Love it-The Game and 50 Cent
  • The Boxer-Simon and Garfunkle
  • Drops of Jupiter-Train
  • I am-Train
  • Counting Airplanes-Train
  • Cab-Train
  • She’s on Fire-Train

What’s playing for you today????

You mean I actually finished something!?

Posted in 101,109 in 2009,Mom by Donna on March 27, 2009
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Well isn’t that a suprise?  I saw Twilight and marked it off my 109.  I’m not that impressed by it.  It was ok.  I finished my small quote book!  And I’ve gotten 5 pictures for my 26 things that I’m determined to finish.  And, I did something, I’m more proud of than anything.  I scrapped my bucket list.  And started a new one.  Why you ask?  Wel I decided that there are a few things in me that need to be adjusted, dealt with and tended too.  So, I’m going to do that.  I’m determined to finish that this weekend.

I’ve been seeing Troy Dunn EVERYWHERE!  TV, WEB, Magazines, he’s everywhere I tell ya.  I’m only hoping that one of these days I’ll get an email or call saying he wants to help.  Otherwise, I’ll have to start digging by going into records and stuff back home and there is no telling what that is going to entail.  I have such an urge to find my mother right now that it’s not funny.  I guess I just need the closure as to what happened.

How is life for you?

In Need of an Order…

Posted in Life by Donna on March 24, 2009
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I keep saying that I’m going to have some sort of order to this blog and I still haven’t managed to come up with one yet.  I need a routine.

Any suggestions?

A Girl’s Best Friend…

Posted in Just Because by Donna on March 23, 2009

In the raw from the Periodic chart at Griffith Observatory

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To Find Her or Not

Posted in Life by Donna on March 23, 2009
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So, I’m sure if you’ve looked at my 101 you will have seen #’s 42-Try 1 more time to find my mother and 43-Be at peace with the results.  So I sort of did something about them.

Have you ever heard of Troy Dunn ? Check out his link. Or his show. He finds people. I submitted my story to maybe be on tv, if not that’s okay. If she doesn’t want to see me that’s ok. I can at least make peace with the whole situation if I have some sort of conclusion.

Because that’s what it’s about. Getting a resolution to a problem that has gone on for 29 years now.

It’s Friday!

Posted in Thoughts by Donna on March 20, 2009
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Well, yesterday last night I posted a picture I took from Griffith Observatory.  Marcy is in from New York and we had plans to go to Old Town and then just hang out and the hubby was going to chauffer us to Griffith Park.  Well we went through Old Town and a lot of South Pasadena.  We had a blast that day and then that evening we went to Griffith Park.  More specifically the Observatory.  Wow.  It was nice.  I have a lot of pictures that I’ve got to put up and I’ll do that soon.  I need to get my photo blog going again and will try to get that done this weekend.  I’m thinking I want a different one but I’m not sure.

And I got another call about my resume.  I’m excited because this one is not to far from home either.  It’s in Azusa which is about 30 minutes from here.

Marcy is coming back today so I think we’re just going to spend the day hanging out, not doing much of anything.  It’s nice to have friends here.  Kris we need to make time for you to come up here too!  SO, that’s about it from here.  More photos to follow I hope.

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