Discovering Donna

Seriously Now

Posted in Finding me by Donna on October 17, 2008

K so I woke up this morning, thinking. My brain has been doing this for the past weeks since we’ve decided to make the move to California. I wake up at the oddest times with all sorts of crazy thoughts. Some are good, some aren’t. But yesterdays post and the work I’ve been doing on my list have gotten me to thinking.

I was going to do a post on reinvention- as in reinventing yourself. But as I sat here this morning and started really studying my list I discovered that I am not trying to reinvent myself. I’m trying to find myself. Well not in the sense that it’s what everyone says when they say they are trying to find themselves. I think sometimes people say that and don’t know what the heck they are talking about. I sort of know who I am but at the same time, I don’t know all of who I am. Does that make sense to anyone other than me?

I know I’m a strong person. When I absolutely have to be. Why can’t I be that way all the time? I would have to admit that years 1-18 were sheltered. I had a strict father who didn’t tolerate crap and it wasn’t till I lived in the dorm at college and made my own mistakes or accomplishments that I didn’t really find out about the real world. Even after that but it’s a constant learning process.

Now we’re about to embark on a huge journey. Not just me, D is included in this. It’s not so much for him because he’s going home. I however am about to step way outside of my comfort zone. I mean wayyyyyyy outside. I thought before about moving to a city larger than the Shreveport/Bossier Area. But driving through Dallas a few times and riding with Lori when she lived there when we would go out, sort of put me off. Traffic is crazy. But that’s a way of life, a sign of change, getting used to crazy traffic where your morning rush hour is more than just 15 minutes.

At the same time, a bigger city is more things to do. More places to go. As Rachel said when I told her about the move, the scrapbooking possibilites!!! I know Lori didn’t believe it but the time we went to the museum, I loved it. I didn’t really ohhh and ahhh over the paintings but how can you not be impressed when you come face to face with a Monet, Degas, or Kandinsky? I want to do more things like that. I want to go to the Presidental Libraries- well not all of them but a select few. I want to go and see the aquariums, the museums, the beaches, the bright lights of Vegas. I want to go to New York, Boston and other places.

I know I’m getting off the subject but at the same time it’s all tied together. Finding out what I like and don’t like, that’s all a part of finding me right?

Just a few thoughts here~

What do you think??